Your happiest day is someone else's worst nightmare. The day where you were being so thankful and needed the amazing LORD in your life is the day where some people's felt the pains HE gives through the heaviest test in their life.
In this February, I went to obituary twice but those Sunday and Wednesday were such happy days for me but not for my friend and my family from dad's side. My happiest days were some families nightmares and how could I hid my happiness from those people when you could see how happy my face was.
I remembered that Sunday when my friend's mom died instantly, I had a very late sleep (4am) but somehow, I woke up after 4 hours and suddenly I wrote this on my FB status " I need GOD in every moment in my daily life even when I'm sleeping. I need HIM to guide, protect and calm me; even when I'm having a quick nap, I want HIM to give me peace. I need HIM even when I've my food so I can enjoy the food HE gives me even it may not delicious. I need HIS blessings every morning so my day will ended with tons of happiness and appreciations. I need HIM, HIS Blessings, HIS Grace because when I live life according to HIM and surrender in HIS plans, I'm living in Glorious Life"
Had no idea why I wanted to write that but I felt so, then I was just busy continuing my works until I took a quick look at my BB and read one of friend's status " Be Strong Ven" and I wonder what went wrong. Venny's mom passed away just like that without a sign or anything. She went to church in the morning and felt a pain so went back home and goodbye. wow! I heard the story and my eyes gone weary, how shocking it must had been for her family even it shook me too. I didn't know how it felt for Venny and her brother and sister but I understood if they became bizarre. And there was I, saw what happened to me few years back happened to Venny but of course, I knew how to overcome those. The truth, I didn't know what GOD wanted to tell me, to make me see many things on that day but this time, i felt so much better. I felt like lucky and blessed that I'm healed and while I was helping other to heal, there was Mr. Grumpy waiting outside for me even he was so bored. He has always made me feel thankful so much about life!
And a week after Chinese New Year, in the 17th, we had to bid goodbye to my uncle who happened to be my dad's nephew. When he came to my house (since my dad is the oldest), he was so different than the last time I saw (like few months before). He became so skinny, unable to walk and talk properly. I had no idea why, but somehow I knew, he would passed away. The truth, it was really weird for me to see his daughters came from Australia RANDOMLY! They never came back for several years neither came to my house for Chinese New Year celebration but this time they did. And when I saw them, I knew, this is such a weird chinese new year but I ignored. They only came for a week or less and 2 days after they arrived in Australia, their father died. I wasn't his favorite nephew neither we had lots of talks (ever) except Hi, Bye, How are you but without any strong bond, I knew he would begone soon.
Monday morning, mom told me about the bad news but it didn't surprise me at all as if I knew it would happened. But his two daughters were still shocked, disbelief in what my aunty and uncle told them. One thing I said that I never forget few years back when he was 60 (or 61) where I predicted stuff. I said to one of my aunty who asked me to predict my uncle and I said "He won't live that long. If he could made it 65 then he was lucky" and he did make it pass 65 but died when he was 66! so I guess, my prediction wasn't that bad and I will never forget that. NO I didn't curse him, it was just i saw through him and my heart said so and I told what I felt. Yes, yes, I used to predict bunch of things and they happened but the past 2 years I quit them and living life by surrendering in LORD JESUS has been amazing and make me feel so blessed.
My parents, especially my dad, i wish he understood on how much he is so blessed by HIM. Often he said "I want to die, I want to die" instead of being thankful as he's a lot healthier than ever. I know he was really sad knowing he is officially 84 now and his nephew died at the age of 66. My dad is stronger, happier and look a lot younger than two of his nephews. and I'm really thankful to the LORD for that, to give him healthier body although I wish he can be more active so his whole organ won't be rusty LOL! while for mom, she is really super blessed, very healthy and mentally strong for her age even she's very short-temper (like me), over protective (as I'm the only child), and can't be my best friend. But I know she is a great woman! who have done more than I ever imagined, fought for her beliefs and although quite snobby but she has a good heart. She is very stubborn and hard to compromise but despite of that, she's a very smart lady and I pray and hope, very soon, we will be her provider and giving her happiness more than she believes she deserves. I pray that my mom will be happier, healthier, luckier, and wealthier at any moments and we can give her every little things she wants in life and making her proud of our big achievements #please help us LORD #Aamiin HE Grants! :-)
Now, looking back at these two events also have made me realize that I should had given my heart more peace and listen to what they say carefully without an anger/ego. I had no idea why I wrote that at the day when my friend's mom died and felt that my uncle wouldn't lived long after the Chinese new year. I have abandoned in trusting my heart for almost 2 years now or more ever since I trusted Grumpy's more than mine. His prediction is even better than mine especially when he doesn't like someone. But now, I guess, this is the time for me to listen the whisper of my heart genuinely and pushing away my anger slowly or even get rid of it instantly if I could.
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